I am really confused with what is happening with me. I don’t even have the words to describe whatever it is. But there’s just one thing I am sure of, it feels heavy. I look happy but who am I fooling when I know that deep inside me there is this secret place where sadness hides along with fear and other negative emotions.
I had been playing songs by The Beatles the whole day. [Yes, I have a 10.3 hours Beatles playlist]. Crazy as it may sound, I had been holding my tears for almost half of the time while listening to the legend. Yes, they have happy and lively songs yet it was the lonely ones that caught me– carrying me away like a raging river. The melancholy I was trying to cloak with pretensions just got exposed and I realized that I had been bearing too much weight. I am tired of pretending that everything is alright when it is not. I may have a strong façade but I am not infallible.
I am also fragile and breakable like any other thing.
Dear Prudence is my theme song for the day, it’s the song I can relate to the most as of the moment.